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Expecting – Part II

You were introduced to DJs and electronic music when you were the size of an ear of corn. And my, did you dance!

When you were the size of an eggplant, your papa and I took a walk in woods full of colour. Gentle drops of rain began to fall and we wondered if you could hear the forest, too.

You were on the cusp of being the size of a bunch of grapes when, relaxing in the bath, I watched my belly move as you moved. You were right there, and I was amazed by you.

We visited the spa and sauna when you were the size of a turnip. In the pool, I floated on my back and my belly, basking in weightlessness. But don’t worry – we watched you kick and spent the day talking about you.

We celebrated Thanksgiving with all of your grandparents when you were the size of a cauliflower. Everyone is so excited to meet you.

When you were the size of a pomelo, your papa and I decided that I was no longer a good belay partner. I knew there would be many more occasions for us to make decisions based not on our wishes, but on what was best for you.

You were the size of a coconut when we took a walk in a fine dusting of snow, and I wondered if you’d ever know the snowy winters your papa and I remember from our childhoods on different continents.

Your papa and I started prenatal classes when you were the size of a pineapple. I left the first evening fascinated by the work my body had done for you and almost looking forward to the experiences to come.

When you were the size of a butternut squash, it was time for me to stay home and get ready for you. For such a tiny creature, you certainly do come with a lot of accessories!

When you were the size of a Romaine lettuce, we started talking with the midwives about the best way to bring you into the world. However you get here, we cannot wait to meet you.

When you were just about the size of a melon, I was decisively ready for you. And at the same time, I was prepared to carry you as long as you needed.

Weimar, Germany – February 2026

Expecting – Part I

You were the size of a sesame seed when your papa and I first learned about you. We were in the Alps for some climbing and mountaineering, and all I could think about was you.

You were the size of a blueberry when we first saw your heart beating. And how fast! We were in awe.

You were the size of a strawberry when it was time for new bras. Finally, an easily managed symptom of my body shaping itself to house you.

You were the size of a fig when I saw your hands wave and feet kick. You turned around and around.

Your papa and I held hands in the waiting room when you were nearly the size of a lemon. Then, the doctor showed us your symmetrical brain, four-chambered heart, 10 fingers, 10 toes. Your feet crossed at the ankles and your hands covered your face. Through tears, we watched you move.

You were almost the size of an apple when it was time for maternity pants. I marvelled at my body’s ability to make space for you.

You were the size of a cucumber when my skin met skin in places that had never touched before. I grew out of my climbing harness and started wearing one designed for my changing body, announcing to everyone who didn’t already know that you were on the way.

When you were the size of a mango, your papa felt you move for the first time. We lay in the dark as I guided his hand, both of us basking in the astonishment of you.

Halfway through the journey of becoming, you were the size of a grapefruit. Your papa and I took some time away to be together, smiling all the while at you.

Madeira, Portugal – October 2025

Birthday Wishes

Since moving abroad, I’ve had the feeling that my birthday lasts three days. People have sent me birthday wishes a day early or late depending on the time zone I’m in or they’re in, and sometimes it takes me half a day to check my phone, regardless of time zone. I love the feeling of being hugged the world over, and I love the ease of being in touch with people who I have met in different corners of the sky.

This year, my birthday fell on a Monday, my first day back at school after two and a half weeks off. I expected to feel a bit let down by it, but I surprised myself. I am lucky enough to enjoy going to work and I let myself feel pleased by the birthday wishes coming from students and teachers alike. This seemed better than the embarrassment that I’ve conjured up in the past. Maybe it also helped I finally look old enough to avoid, with the notable exception of my grade 7 students, the question of exactly that. They quickly assured me that I don’t look that old, leaving me both flattered and inwardly groaning.

My in-laws surprised me by stopping by with flowers and they stayed for the pizza that my partner and I made from scratch. He has perfected the dough recipe, and it was our best pizza yet. I requested a candle and made a wish, marvelling that this tradition spans oceans. Having left my own family mere days before, it was not just the wine that left me feeling warm as we sat together at the table.

For the coming weekend, we’ve planned a small party to celebrate, inviting more people than we think our apartment can hold. I’m honoured that so many friends can be with us and counting on a bit of birthday magic.

On Monday, I made the same wish upon a candle that I make every time I’m granted a wish, be it on a star or an escaped eyelash. And now my wish for you: May it be a joyful, healthy, peaceful 2025 for you and yours.