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Where Things Are Now

Things are pretty much the same, and status quo is alright sometimes. I still love my apartment (I made a burnt eggplant and tahini salad Monday night and spiced lentils with cucumber yogurt tonight), still hate the town where I’m living (thank goodness for friends and Tuesday night badminton), still love travelling (off to Singapore this weekend, Indonesia next weekend, Hong Kong in March to see one of my best friends, hopefully Vietnam in February), and still miss home, family, and friends.

For once, however, school is going well! I have 14 students now, a proper class in comparison to 4. There’s so much more I can do! Unsurprisingly, teaching a real class of elementary students is a real challenge for me. I’ve never worked with students this young and I’ve never taught every subject. Classroom management is completely different, of course, and I feel like I’m constantly trying and scrapping ideas. If it’s anything like my first year teaching, give me 2 months and I’ll have it down without a problem. And there is no way anything can ever be as hard as that year; at its worst, teaching fifth grade can’t even come close. Right now, though, we’re very much in the push-and-resist phase. I think I’m winning. Since the administrators at school are fighting amongst themselves (on a hilarious email chain onto which the entire staff is copied!) we teachers have been left alone, which is how I like it. I have a lot of autonomy in my classroom and I really love that.

Talk at school has long been about plans for next year, and now next year is here. I’ve made my plans as best I can but they’re contingent on Mitch’s ongoing job search in Singapore. I finally understand why the people who teach overseas are either teaching couples or single; the job market for me is very different than it is for Mitch. Neither of us really understood what that meant. If we had to do it all over again, we would have done it differently. Now, we’re trying to pick up the pieces of all the determination we have left because we really do want this to work.

Now that I know more than I did 14 months ago when I took a job at a brand new international school halfway around the world and Mitch agreed to come with me, I can offer this advice: Listen. People around me who know the world better than I do made suggestions that I ignored or explained away. Fatal error. Listen, heed, and be patient.

Settled

Finally, after 142 days of living in a hotel, I have an apartment. I made my first meal (ratatouille, fake chicken, salad) here on Sunday and slept here for the first time last night, Monday. Currently, I’m sitting on the balcony drinking my second glass of wine. We don’t have school tomorrow because of a state holiday, so it seemed like the perfect thing to do.

Finally, after 142 days of living in a hotel, I feel lighthearted and settled and content to be where I am, doing what I’m doing.

It’s about time.

Falling to Pieces

Have you looked at the news lately?

Have you wondered?

Have you sighed?

Have you cried?

Every so often I start thinking about everything going wrong in my corner of the planet and then I am rudely and sharply awoken to real troubles, real suffering, real horror.

After the hostage crisis in Sydney, an Australian colleague commented, “And just before Christmas, too.”

It doesn’t matter when terrible things happen; it matters that terrible things happen. It matters that the world allows such things to happen. There has always been death and destruction and racism and bigotry and hated and corruption. There has always been sexism and xenophobia and epidemics and terror and theft and murder. Have instances of such occurrences increased over the years, or am I more aware now than I used to be? (I suspect it’s a bit of both.)

Regardless of the reason behind the prevalence of such awful events in the news, I think the next question is the most important: Now what?

Now. What.

How do we stop it? How do we help? How do we raise awareness? Raise money? Increase compassion? Improve education? How do we, as concerned people of the world, ensure that our children and their children grow up in a happier, safer, more united world that the one we are experiencing today? What do we do?