I’m planning a trip to Bangkok for October when my dad visits, and I thought I’d revisit my Bangkok post to see exactly what Mitch and I did. As I looked through the post, I realized that the photos were gone. I realized that years of photos, including my 365 photos project, are gone. That’s because I ran out of media storage space on this blog ages ago and deleted a bunch of photos from old blog posts from the media library. I thought they would be saved because the posts were already published.

I was wrong.

They’re all gone.

I’ve been keeping this blog since 2012 and I have nothing to show for it. My entire 365 photos project is gone; those photos were lost on my computer when I had to transfer most of my files to an external hard drive last year because I ran out of storage space. I can’t find them on the external hard drive, which means I must have deleted them because I figured I could always pull them off my blog.

It’s times like this when I wish I had a film camera. It’s times like this when I wish I made photo albums or scrapbooks instead of storing everything online.

I’ve always wondered why regular blogs, like mine, have domain names that they pay for. Now I know why: Storage space.

To say I want to cry is an understatement. I feel empty, like I’ve lost part of who I was. I can’t point to anything I’ve done or tried to do because it’s all gone.